I declared today a slow day. My day off, coinciding with freezing temperature mean that I call it a home day and we stay home from preschool and all other responsibilities.
There’s bee a lot of playing, and crafting and planning and eating and T.V watching and cuddles. And honestly, that sums up a lot of the last month. Just giving myself permission to let things go. Our house is a bit of a disaster and hasn’t recovered from the holidays yet. Everyone has been watching more T.V. than I usually care for and there’s a lot I’ve just let slide and I feel like we’ve earned it.
It’s been a long couple of years and if I learned something from my first pregnancy it’s that taking care of myself goes a long way. Not pushing myself to exhaustion means I’m healthier, I’m eating, I’m hydrated and I’m rested. There’s time to vacuum and tidy later.
So today is a slow day. The perfect day for lounging and playing and keeping the fire going and having little moments and growing this little person who has been letting me feel more and more human over the last week or so and maybe, just maybe has been the reason behind the little tickles that I think I’ve been feeling. I definitely think I got “big” quickly, and if my friends are right my feelings like I’ve shrunk is normal for this stage, and maybe just some 1st tri bloating going away – but it’s kept me up a bit at night. I don’t know what a “normal” pregnancy feels like. In fact, I feel like this is my first time in many ways. We’ll get an update next Wednesday and a wonderful friend is sending me her fetal doppler monitor so that I can relax a little bit more.